2025-01-07 #
What is The Truth™? There's the misconception that truth prevails over falsity. What the truth is in practice:
- What the average of your closest peers think.
- Consensus by self-proclaimed experts, bureaucrats, and the political class.
- Behind closed doors, the truth is what the most powerful person in the room believes.
- Information which may harm those in power.
There are narratives which in all likelihood don't tell the whole story, but the people are powerless to challenge it: might makes right.
2025-01-04 #
Hell is other people. The interpretation of this Sartre quote at face value is almost always wrong, it doesn't mean that other people make life miserable (but this is also the case). Once one is dead, the perception of that person is fixed, it can no longer change, hence that person is trapped in Hell on Earth. A person is truly dead when they are forgotten, often this happens before the physical death. I keep reminding myself of this as I think about my own mortality.
2025-01-01 #
Time is a flat circle. The same things keep happening over and over. What did I want to do differently in this life? It's absurd yet also realistic to think that today could be my last day, or it could be years from now. I think not about how I wish to be remembered, but how I may be judged by God. Not really sure why I'm here at all, though my art gives me some sense of fulfillment, and my writing at least puts my worldview out in the æther. This is for sure a Hell realm we inhabit here on Earth.
While kings may be buried with their lavish possessions, I may as well leave nothing behind but this webbed site. Most people depart this Earth with nothing but relationships to others, I have relatively few of those. I don't intend to unalive myself, but I'm pre-occupied with the thought that life is so short.
There is this concept of the death drive which manifests itself in self-destructive behavior. Some might even argue that a will-to-death is what motivates human behavior. Becoming a martyr, whether one chooses to or not, is a noble death. I disrespect people who mock how people died, especially their enemies, it reflects that they live for no values at all.
